Sunday, March 25, 2018

Figuring Shit Out

Hey, readers.  I know I haven't been blogging much as of late.  Sorry about that.  I've just been in another one of my funks.  Really haven't felt like doing anything.

Been spending the last few weeks wondering what to do next.  I feel like I'm not living up to my potential.  I've wanted to get into video production and film-making.  But I haven't been behind a piece of video editing equipment since I was 18.  Before everything went digital.

Now that I have a good camera to shoot videos with (By camera I mean an ipod touch.  But whatever.  It's better than nothing.), I can start experimenting with making videos.  But  what do I film?  Therein lies the problem.  Honestly, I'm boring as fuck.  So, it wouldn't make sense to film myself.

My brain is a jumbled mess.  Plus, I'm anxious.  Those 2 things don't really help with the brainstorming process.  What if what I come up with is stupid or not good enough?  What if nobody likes it?  

What if I'm a complete failure?  Why the fuck am I wasting space?  Being me is sad and tiring.  Don't be a me.  Later.